Identity

Knowing ones identity is not an easy task. Some people doesn't even know who they really are. Others copy, imitate or even worse, steal another person's identity. 

Why? Let us first define the word.

Identity:

- The fact of being who or what a person or thing is.

- The distinct personality of an individual regarded as a persisting entity

- The set of behavioral or personal characteristics by which an individual is recognizable as a member of a group

When you are in a group of people, it is very hard for others to recognize you or identify if you copy another person's actions, appearance, behavior or personality. People will notice you because you are unique. If not, they will think that you are just imitating another person. 

But how will you know who you really are? For me, I've discovered this when I was still in college. I told myself that I should change my old introvert attitude because it won't certainly help with keep up with college life.

I used to be very shy during my elementary and high school years. I'm just a normal student with normal problems in school but I have no more than 5 friends each grade and year level. Boring huh? You will only notice me when my name appears on the Top Ten list but other than that, I'm technically invisible. Sad.

Making friends and being with other people was the last thing on my mind. I'm more concentrated with my studies and other school stuff. Still, I used to be a member of the cultural dance troupe when I was in elementary. Yeah, believe it or not I was a folk dancer before. haha. I had friends there but they were just my school friends, literally. 

So when I entered college, I immediately made friends with my classmates. I can remember some of them like Vanity, Ross, Ivy, Paulo, and umm. okay never mind. haha. But I was surprised. I instantly gained new friends! yay. 

And it started there. My true identity began to unfold. I was never really the quiet, nerd, geek, weak type of person. That person was long gone. haha. I am now, if I may say, a better, strong and fun-loving person. Heck, I never imagined that I'd become a teacher! haha.

Some might think that I have two identities. Well the answer is no. I just have this ability to control my attitude depending on the situation. If I need to be professional, then I'll act professional. But if I'm just around my friends, I can be whoever I want to be! I don't want to be serious all of the time. There are a lot of good things in life and I don't want one problem to spoil all the fun. 

If you see me for the first time, you may get the impression that I am masungit or snob. But truth is, I really am not. Here's the deal. If I don't know you, then don't bother acting like we are close. haha. 

I know what are my wants, needs, likes and dislikes. I'm not gonna like something just because another other person likes it... that doesn't make me unique. I know what I am capable and not capable of. I'm not gonna volunteer myself with a job when I know in the first place that I cannot do it. I'm won't brag about my talents, abilities, and whatnot just to make others notice me. If my talents or services are needed, then that's just the time to show them off. I won't try to fit in if I know in my mind that I can't. 

The best advice i can give is... Just know what your limits are and do not pretend to be someone you're not. 

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Untitled.

This post was written during a very boring moment in a no-wifi hotel room. (Actually I'm just stingy to pay for the internet access). lol

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While having a conversation with my friends the other night, I suddenly came up with this quote:

"My life is an open book, but some of the pages are folded."

I modified an old quote to make it more interesting. haha. At first I was just joking about it. But after contemplating for a while, I realized that that quote fits me very well. Let me explain.

"My life is an open book..."

Why?

1. Those people close to me know every detail in my life. Or do they? haha. I have this habit of letting people know what happens to me in my everyday life. No matter how big or small, no one can stop me from sharing it to someone. haha. (remember the keyword: share)

2. It's very hard for me to be plastic. If I don't like you, you'll be the dumbest person in the world if you don't notice it. I hate plastics as much as I hate being plastic. If I'm not in the mood... Well IM NOT IN THE MOOD so piss off! haha

3. What you see is what you get. How I act, talk or behave in texts, YM, and phone is just the same when you're with me in the flesh. haha. I'm a loud, happy, and jolly person but I get emo too sometimes. haha

4. I can easily get attached to someone. If that happens, you'll know almost all of the facts about me in 24 hours. haha.


Now let's get into the second part...

"... but some of the pages are folded."

Ironic? haha. And I like those pages to stay folded.

As much as I want people to know every single detail in my life, there are still some things that I'd like to keep for myself. Those things are private and I don't want anybody else interrogate me. That what makes me interesting I guess. I like to keep the balance between my own world and the public. If I don't say or share something to you, please don't bother asking.

It irritates me when people ask me nonsense questions. Like do you really have to know where I am? Do I have to give you my itinerary or plan for the week? Do you have to know what I am eating or who am I with? Do I have to tell you if I feel good or bad? Do you really have to know that? lol. It's better to be spontaneous because it's more exciting and gives you a whole different experience. haha.

I like to spend an alone time too. Sometimes you might notice that I act weird or something but it's my way of reformatting my brain. haha. So leave me alone. You'll know when I'm done.


I can say that I am still mysterious in a way. Even my own parents cannot say that they know me a hundred percent.

You may know me for years but those folded pages can never be revealed.

WHAT!?!? lol

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Having Fun! + Revelation.

Who's Mr. Macchiato?

First of all, this post would reveal my true identity. For the past 6 months or so, I've tried to hard to keep my blog anonymous but due to some reasons, I came to a decision to let the world know who I am. haha. 

What made me publicize my identity?

- Because there are a lot of pictures too cute that it would be a sin if they will not be posted. haha. 

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Okay for the real post. 

I had a great time yesterday. I originally planned to drop by school, collect projects then have coffee with my cousin. But Mam Jas asked me and Chris if we could help finish her thesis documentation. So we stayed at one of the classrooms in school and got ourselves busy.  

After a while, we decided to go somewhere else because there were a lot of distractions in school that hindered us from getting our work done. So me, Chris, Mas Jas, together with one of my/our favorite and closest student, Geric, went to Starbucks. 

Remeber the coupon that I mentioned in the last post? I gave that to the newest coffee convert, Geric. haha. I dunno if I should be happy that he's liking coffee or get worried of his allowance. lol. While Chris and Mam Jas were working, me and Geric continued playing tangrams. (I will detail the game further on my next post. lol)

Later on, Royce came and joined us. He's Geric's friend and one of my/our favorite students also. Hahaha. Biased much? No, their barkada is really great in school. 

Before heading home, we went to the arcade for a while and played Time Crisis. Haha. Imagine students and teachers playing at Power Station. haha. But I think nothing's wrong with that. It's nice making friends with them, and our age gap is not that big. haha. Students and teachers in school, but good friends outside. :D 

We just laughed and made fun about all things, big or small. I just wanna live my life to the fullest because of my current condition... that I don't wanna talk about. haha. Just plain fun. No dull moments. 

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