Trick or Treat!

Well it's All Hallows Eve! And since it's not a tradition here in the Philippines to decorate their houses with pumpkins and spider webs, I figured out that I'll just go Trick or Treating here in my blog! Hahaha.

Sooo

Trick or Treat!!!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN TO EVERYONE!

The Aftermath

I just had to write this.

I thought everything was okay. I said to myself that I'm gonna be fine. But a part of me still hurts. 

Remember my very volatile mood? Well two nights after the talk, my mood changed in a snap. All the laughter in my face was mysteriously taken away. I dunno what happened to me. My mind wasn't functioning properly and my emotions became very sensitive. 

Now I know.

My heart and my thoughts are still on a battle. I'm struggling to fight.

It will take more time than I expected. But I'll be fine... soon.

How am I holding on?

- good music

- a cup of coffee

- chocolates

- and good friends around me

Next: Moving On.

(Enough with the drama! lol)

(^_^)

Could Have Been.

This is my final post about he-who-must-not-be-named. lol

I never imagined that the two of us would meet.

That day was just special.

It was magical.

You were a dream come true.

From that moment, I knew that "we" would really last for a long time.

Every day that we were together.

All the words that were spoken.

All text messages sent.

Really gave me a feeling that I cannot truly explain.

Of course we had our bad times.

We talked.

We cried.

Then compromised.

We were happy.

And the time came.

When you had to leave.

I trusted you.

You trusted me.

We were apart.

But we reserved time for each other.

It was difficult.

But for five years we survived.

Then the last time I saw you.

I didn't have a hint.

That something very bad would happen.

You broke a promise.

A promise that you know would mean the end.

For us.

I tried to think.

Tried to listen.

But I didn't understand.

I have made myself clear to you.

"Loyalty is very important."

That little thing you did.

Put an end to "us".

And now you're coming back.

I know you're sorry.

A lot of tears were shed.

You explained yourself.

But I said No.

It's hard for me to accept.

Because.

I keep on thinking that...

...It could have been us.

(;_;)

You To Me Are Everything

Oookay. Here we go again. I don't want to talk about it anymore. It's still as painful as the first time. :(

I finally talked to him. Here's what he said.

"I'll just summarize what I feel using this amazing song."

Hmmm, I would take the stars out of the sky for you

Stop the rain from falling if you ask me to

I'd do anything for you, your wish is my command

I could move a mountain when your hand is in my hand

Hmmm, Words could not express how much you mean to me

There must be some other way to make you see

If it takes my heart and soul you know I'd pay the price

Everything that I possess I'd gladly sacrifice

Oh, you to me are everything

The sweetest song that I can sing, oh baby, oh baby

To you I guess I'm just a clown who picks you up

Each time you're down, oh baby, oh baby

You give me just a taste of love to build my hopes up on

You know you got the power girl to keep me holding on

So now you've got the best of me

Come on and take the rest of me, oh baby

Though you're close to me, we seem so far apart

Maybe given time you'll have a change of heart

If it takes forever girl, then I'm prepared to wait

The day you give your love to me won't be a day too late

Yes, he sang that to me over the phone. What now?! I'm so confused. Sigh. 

I know it's still my decision. 

I need more time.

Maybe?

Not?

(;_;)

Tumbler.

Haha. It was Geric's birthday yesterday. Me and Chris were thinking of a gift for our adopted son since last week. lol

We were thinking of something that he would really use and not just something that would disappear after a day. We thought of a lot of things: a pen, book, polo, shirt, cap, journal, eyeglasses, tumbler, mirror, gift certificate, DVD, and even a pet rabbit! haha. I really dunno where that last item came from. lol

After spending a day in two malls, we still can't decide on a single gift. So we went to starbucks to get my caffeine fix, start making exams and think about the gift. haha. Upon entering the store, we saw an array of tumblers on display. We approached the cabinet and looked at different kinds of tumblers. Then Chris picked up a tumbler called "TumbleArt" in which you can customize its design. I looked at it and immediately got an idea. :D

We've decided to buy that tumbler and then fill it with Geric's pictures and of course, me and Chris'. hahaha. I liked the idea because it will not be just an ordinary gift, but a very special gift. lol.

Then earlier today, after the exams, we gave Geric our gift. :D

Geric,

This tumbler is our gift, both for your birthday and for being on top of the class. haha

We hoped that you liked it. Printed on that tumbler are the happy memories of the three of us. Awwww. 

And ditch the pocari bottle already! haha.

From, 

Your "Parents"

(^_^)

Proud "Parents"

It was nice to see our "children" receive their awards. We really felt proud for them because of two great reasons:

1. It was our first time to teach.

2. It was their first term in College. 

How nice? hahaha.

Their barkada collected all of the awards - from third honors to first! How selfish of them. haha.

Once again, Congratulations to the six of you. All the hard work payed off. Time to prove yourselves once again this term. Don't disappoint us! hahaha.

(^_^)

New MacBooks!

Just when I thought that I have the latest MacBook Pro model, here comes the new, redesigned, more powerful MacBooks. haha. Damn.

I remember getting my MBP last July 29, 2008. So after less than 3 months, Apple unveiled their new lineup of notebooks. Great. haha. At first, I kinda didn't like the design of the new laptops, but after a day, it all changed. haha. I'm now drooling, lusting, and dreaming of the new MacBooks.

The looks of the new notebooks are really different from the older ones. The new MacBooks looks like a smaller MacBook Pro. There's no more exclusivity between the two. I'm now thinking what to get. hmmm..

But I want to wait till January next year. I'm sure there are still a lot of flaws in this new notebooks. I don't want to rush because they might release newer models and revisions next year.

Oh Apple. Why are you doing this to me?

haha.

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iTunes Top 25

I would just like to share what's on my iTunes Top 25 Most Played songs. haha.

My top 3 most played songs are:

1. Come In Out Of The Rain by Wendy Moten

- I loved this song since I was in 1st year high school. I dunno what's with the song. lol. Maybe because of the melody? Or because I love to sing this in karaoke. hahaha

2. Luv by Janet Jackson 

- Hmm. I immediately fell in luv with this song the first time I heard it. The beats are insane.. I just love the arrangement. yay. lol

3. You & Me by Lifehouse 

- This song is "awwwww". The lyrics, melody, and the voice of Jason Wade makes me cry. haha.

Now the other songs have their own different stories. I listen to those songs based on my mood and emotions - Happy, Emo or In Love. lol

So what do you think my mood is most of the time? 

haha.

(^_^)

Grown-Up

After more or less 5 months of teaching, I observed my students' attitudes and behaviors.  Most of them are in between the ages of 7-18 years old. That's basically teaching three different levels: Elementary (Grades 4-6), High School (3rd and 4th year), and College (1st year).

The most interesting age group are those students in 3rd year high school to 1st year college. In my opinion, during this years, one is getting ready to become mature or grown-up. 

A lot of changes are happening to them: mentally, physically and emotionally. In this stage, you may begin to feel affections toward the opposite sex (or for others, the same sex. lol). Others handle their growing up years properly but others are too excited to be "grown ups". 

Peer pressure is a very big factor in teens nowadays. For example, in order to get accepted in a barkada, you need to have a boyfriend or girlfriend first. If not, you will be pushed to find a lover even if it's against your will. 

Based from my observations, high school students are most interested in the topic of sex. Yes, you heard me right. There are so many discussions regarding this matter. No wonder why a lot of teenagers are getting pregnant. Mostly they want physical love not emotional.

College students on the other hand are very different. They're beginning to know their priorities. Some like to finish school first, but others like to study and be in love. Being in love is okay just as long as it doesn't affect their studies. Loving someone is the same as having a supply of inspiration, not obsession and distraction. haha.

Students fall apart or stop school mainly because of two things: money and heartbreaks. 

The money part I can understand because it is inevitable. Others want to pursue studying but because they can't afford to pay their school fees, they drop out. It is sad and it is the reality. 

On the other hand, some students refuse to continue with their schooling just because they are devastated. By what? But by love of course. See how this thing called love can affect oneself? It's frightening that some people would rather die than face the pain of letting go. Oh believe me when I say this. haha.

Now, how does one become a grown-up?

Acting like a grown-up is very different from acting and thinking like one.

Behaving based on your intuitions and impulses does not always apply in every occasion. A mature person should first think of what this certain action might result to in the future. You must be sure that your decision would not affect other persons, including yourself,  negatively. 

Hmm so after contemplating for quite a while, I guess I have come up with a formula:

Critical and rational thinking + emotional and spiritual guidance = a Grown-up individual who acts and thinks like one.  

Young people should understand this. Knowing many things does not automatically qualify you as mature, but it is how you see things in life.

PS. I hope this post makes any sense at all. haha.

(^_^)

Mr.AZ

I'm currently in love with Jason Mraz. Well not Jason himself but his music. haha. It's very different compared to your normal Pop songs. I really don't know what his genre is. Maybe alternative or adult contemporary? haha. Well it doesn't really matter. I just love his songs.

I'm now hailing "I'm Yours". I just love the whole arrangement of the music and lyrics. Whenever I listen to it, I can feel all my problems fade away. It's like you're on another dimension, free from worldly troubles.. hahaha. It's weird, really. 

It's not often that an artist or a particular album makes it to my playlist but Jason Mraz is different. All songs in his latest album are in my top played songs. haha. I can listen to the entire album for one whole day. All songs were done differently - very unique from each other. 

Hmm... This gave me an idea. I'll be featuring albums every month. Let's start this October. haha. 

So the Album of the Month is: 

"We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things" by Jason Mraz

(^_^)

Violin

Some of you may or know that I play the violin. My baby's name is Banshee, a 3 year old Hofner violin. 

I started my formal lessons in 2005. My teacher comes to our house once or twice a week and taught me the Suzuki method. I felt really nervous during my first sessions. My hands would start to shake and my breathing would unconsciously stop. haha. But my teacher was really nice and patient, so after one month, my hands, fingers, neck and shoulders started to relax. Oh and my breathing was fixed to. lol

After 2 years and 3 books, I suddenly stopped my lessons. School suddenly became too hectic and my practice time vanished. My teacher would text me and ask when will we continue with the lessons. I said that after graduating, I'll start playing again. But that wasn't the case because I am now working. lol.

So I said to myself, it's time to play again. Two weeks ago, I got Banshee out of the cabinet and started playing; from book 1 - 3 and other pieces that I like. 

I picked one piece that I would like to perfect once more. It's "Jesu Joy of Man's Desiring" by Bach. The last time I played this was Christmas 2005. haha. I need to refresh my memory. 

I'll post a video here of me playing soon. 

(^_^)

50-50?

Okay, I took another quiz from Blogthings.  This one's hella funny. lol. (You can find the link under "Webbies")

Your Surfing Habits are 50% Male, 50% Female

There's no way we can tell whether you're a man or woman. Of all the internet users, you are the most broad based in your habits. You use the internet for research and your career. But you also use the internet to keep in close touch with your loved ones.

Do You Use the Internet Like a Man or a Woman?

Very fitting? 50% Male and 50% Female eh? That first line made me laugh. Hahaha.

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iRemote

I just found the coolest and handiest Free Application for my iPhone! It's called Remote. A free app developed by Apple. 

So what does it do? Well basically it controls your iTunes by using an iPhone or iTouch. Just as long as you are connected in a Wi-Fi network, you can be an instant DJ even when you're not in front of your computer. How cool is that? haha

I tried to use this remote on my dad's mac and he got surprised when his songs started to play automatically. He thought that there's something wrong with the computer so he called me. I went down to his office laughing my pants off and explained about the remote. haha. 

Now I can change my songs, browse through my iTunes library and create playlists while lying down on my bed.

You can get this at the app store.

(^_^)